목요일, 2월 26, 2004
my essay is over the word limit, which i have already cut down so as to make it look better. i wish they wouldn't give us word limits. but oh wait, if they didn't, the poor tutors would probably have to deal with 1000 page dissertations written by the over-achievers who are among us. quite frankly, i stopped looking at the 5 pages that make up my essay about 2 hours ago because i realised that no matter how hard i stared at it, there was no way the words were going to change themselves into something that would make me seem more intelligent and well, failing that, less brain dead than i am right now. right. the past day has been bordering on nightmarish, as i tried to put my facts together in the monkey puzzle that is the essay. it was hard to tackle, and i'm not having high hopes for it. nevertheless, i can still say that i've tried, i suppose. just hope that i don't get massacred (wait, there's only one of me, how can i be massacred? hrm, think.)

whatever, that's not important right now. i wonder how serious someone can be when they tell you what they think, when no one else is around.

why do you kiss me and then chuckle in your own quiet way,
resting your cheek against mine,
so that i can smell the crispness of your shirt and
hear the gentle
quiet sounds of your breathing while you
take my hands in yours and tell me everything's going to be all right.
you amaze me in that way.