수요일, 3월 17, 2004
i'm having trouble packing. that's because, as usual, i have too much stuff that needs to be packed away in boxes and indecisive me can't decide (no way, you can't be serious) what to pack here and what to bring back. that, plus the fact that all my sweaters and winter stuff is like, ten miles thick so i can't possibly bring all that back or leave it here because either way, it's gonna be so annoying to keep.

i hate packing. i can't even decide whether or not to keep the pictures up on my walls.

today i was walking through town with two banana boxes, heading back home to fill them full of stuff. i wish i could just chuck those boxes and the suitcase in my closet and under my bed, that would be so much more convenient. of course, they have to be difficult and can't just leave our stuff the way it is, for reasons best known to them. i give up trying to rationalise things like that and i'd rather just leave things the way they are. they want a packed room? they'll get a packed room. just don't try and make me move my things by myself. like hello, i'm an international student i don't get to bring my stuff back and forth from home every term. ok, that's just me being snarky.

faz is right. op:t is kinda going well. that's her judgment and i trust her judgment see, so don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to be an egohead here. :) that doesn't stop me from being a little bit more happy about my life.