금요일, 4월 09, 2004
first of all, there needs to be some commemoration of the day in question: it's good friday.

i always remember how, on the eve of good friday, all my catholic friends would fast, or go vegetarian, which was which, i can't really remember rightly. this was in primary school when things like that still fascinated me somewhat. as the years passed, i can't help but think that age and life in general has cured me of such thoughts.

indeed.

today i happened to traverse out into the world that i know and witness all the sullen beauty it holds. that, despite the fact that it was good friday today. no one else seemed to know. i mean, of course they knew with respect to the fact that it was a public holiday, which meant a long weekend, but other than that, there was not a peep as to the real significance of the holiday itself.

in fact, ironically, everything seemed to be exactly the same. gone were the impressions of the world actually becoming a better place because He died for us, rather, everyone seemed to relish in the maelstrom of consumption, debauchery, and whatever else it is that people get up to. people went on pushing and shoving, trying to get ahead in life, with no time at all to stop and mull over the reason why they were here in the first place.

i don't suppose many people even think about something like that at any point in the week. i guess it isn't something that you want to dwell on, in case you end up with an answer like forty-two, as the superior life-forms in the Hitch-Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy found out. speaking of which, it's a really engaging book; go read if you can get your hands on a copy. that's me, always the last to know. i guess it was good that i eventually found out about a literary laugh like that, albeit ten years, or maybe more, too late.

now would be a good time to watch the muchly-hailed Passion of the Christ. media interest aside, i guess it's nice to have something remotely Christian that is thus publicised, in a good way i mean. that's tons better than the tired rescreening of the Prince of Egypt on the TV year in year out, which, incidentally, has nothing to do with the notion of easter in all honesty. which proves my point even further that this life we live in is nothing more than an empty shell if the physical takes over the spirituality of things. so many people i see are like vases, beautiful on the outside, but unable to conjure up even the slightest comprehension of the depth with which we are placed here on earth to do.

as always, my tried and tested mantra of everything happening for a reason stands true. as much as we have a hand in the paths that we choose in the journey of life, there is a certain element of inevitability in it all. like not being able to choose the way we come into this world, our family, the way we look; some things are predetermined, as life has it, and that's just something we have to live with, use to our advantage, and sometimes rise above.

i guess that's about it when i look at the world that lies outside my head. too many people go about their lives, unaware of the bigger picture, too wrapped up in their myopic vision that everything is just 'me, me, me' that their lives, just like their sight, never goes beyond what happens next.

maybe one day i'll be able to understand.