토요일, 5월 22, 2004
i wish i hadn't come out today.

there seems to be a never-ending flow of people walking towards the city centre, for exams presumably, and right now that's the last feeling on my mind. to be quite frank, i should be worried, because the last paper is on monday, and that means i have a mere 2 days to get my affairs in order. strange how time has passed, in its own meandering way. today i woke up, deeply mired in the fear that i had slept through my alarm, as the sunlight was streaming through the windows, but i hadn't. instead, my parents forgot to call me, the floor outside was strewn with grass, thanks to last night's hard drinking on the part of my housemates, no doubt, and for some reason i keep on getting hungry. this is not good.

right now i wish i didn't have exams, didn't have to deal with anything, and most of all, i wish that i was with my family. it's annoying how the whole homesickness strikes at the oddest times -- like now, halfway through the term. and especially when the sun is shining, and the grass is green. right when we're having one of the best bouts of weather ever seen here in durham, i get homesick.

i do not wish to see the day when my results are posted up on the walls of elvet riverside, and i have to run my pen along the line, hoping to see an empty space. if i don't, then the one word i will see is, God forbid, 'resits', which is not good, not good at all. in fact i was half thinking of not going down personally, but getting renu to go down and take a look for me. this constitutes 'sudden shock' in my book, methinks.

victoria railway commissioners v coultas - dulieu v white - hambrook v stokes - mcloughlin v o'brien - brice v brown - the alcock mechanism - page v smith - mcfarlane - white v chief constable of south yorkshire - greatorex v greatorex - farrell v avon ha - w v essex cc - hatton v sutherland - attia v british gas

do these make any sense to you?

thought so.

i feel like nothing really belongs. it's surreal. maybe it's because i'm wearing satin.

or maybe not.