일요일, 5월 02, 2004
i feel like my head is closing in, yet as i left the house mere minutes ago, my drunk housemates were sitting in a room watching television.

sometimes i wonder, am i really so different from the rest of them?

but then again, i'll probably never be able to hold my alcohol the way these guys do, so i better abandon all hope of ever striking a chord with them on the getting pissed front. don't get me wrong, they're all wonderful people, just that little bit more wonderful when they're sober.

somehow they're able to take this whole only three weeks to the exams thing so easily, to the point that it's quite scary. here i am on the verge of going nuts because i can't finish anything, yet there they are, not even appearing to work. don't tell me that i don't know what they do behind closed doors because i live with these guys so of course i know what they do. or are they just naturally smart?

i think i'm getting disgruntled because i have to wait till the next market day to get a new pillow, which means that i won't be able to sleep well till the next market day, which means that i will be disgruntled. so you see, it's all pretty much a circular thing in essence.

that, plus the fact that i'm stressing over my election speech. grrr.