화요일, 9월 28, 2004
for the first time in days i have some time to myself. honestly, it's nice to have people fussing over you most of the time but today i just felt that i needed to have some time to breathe, wander the streets aimlessly, and generally take the grand tour of the new and improved town that lies before me. after that, some decoration of my room is in order.

somehow though, i can't help but feel like i'm being mean to the people who are being nice to me by doing this. i mean, i love them and all, but there are times when i, being the person that i am, need to get out and explore, feel, find out things for myself. i don't know whether i'm being selfish by doing that.

anyway the net is not up in the house as yet, so that means the trek to elvet riverside is totally necessary in order for me to get connected. and since i'm still half-living out of a suitcase at the moment, no pictures of my room are available for fear that i will be chronicled forevermore in history books as the freak who lives in a pig sty. so when things are nice and neat and all stepford wife-ish, the pictures will (naturally) show themselves.

the weather, if i haven't said already, is lovely. i wish all my friends were back, but then again that would be a contradicting statement to that which was mentioned at the beginning of this blog post. the computer room is starting to fill up, and now i see the number of people who are actually back at uni, that is, not much. still, fresher's week is approaching, and we need to get stuff organised. after a summer of bumming, it's hard to get off the old rump again and get down to doing stuff. right now it's all about getting conditioned again i suppose, and by conditioned i don't mean moisturized.

yesterday i had a dream. i dreamt of someone i haven't seen in a while, i dreamt of you. somehow, in some strange way, i miss you. hope you're doing ok, and though i didn't really get to say goodbye, i'd like to say that you still mean something to me as a friend. take care you.