화요일, 5월 03, 2005
the past few days have been... interesting.

lots and lots of studying (or trying to), and attempts at making sense of the topsy-turvy world that i've found myself in all of a sudden. today we're having the isa elections, and i can't believe that we're almost about to hand over -- everything that we've worked on this year has culminated in this moment; and for the last time we'll all stand together as a team and welcome in the new exec for next year. right now, hours away from the elections, all i can do is cross my fingers and hope that they'll do us proud. which i'm sure they will, either way.

that point aside, work has finally begun to creep along, probably because of the fact that i've been drumming work into my head in the hope that something gets in there. never mind the extra hours put in in the comforts of the dsu staff room, going over those typewritten notes again and again and again... i just hope all this pays off and i actually remember all this stuff in the exam hall. *petrified look*

and i know i don't say this enough, but everyone's support has just been the one thing that i could ever ask for. the tiredness, annoyance and all that bad karma just pales in comparison when i hear my family long-distance over the phone, the laughter and words of encouragement from my pals and the reassuring hugs from Boy. it's one thing a lot of people don't do enough of, and that's giving thanks. it just hit me the other day that God has given me so much in my life, yet sometimes i nitpick and try to make mountains out of molehills, when these things don't actually make such an impact when it comes to the big picture. all that matters is that i'm happy, content, and i do my utmost best in everything that i undertake. a few slipups in life don't really figure at all when stretched out in a whole lifespan.

in fact, right now i blink my heavy eyelids and am satisfied at being able to revise what i could. my work in a prestigious university association is nearing its end, and i have (almost) everything i could ever hope for right now. the bells of the cathedral chime throughout the town, signalling the shifting of the hour hand, and the sunlight streams in, the last few drops of rain still lingering on, mingling with the sunbeams. tomorrow is another God-given day, another 24 hours to make the best of (revision).

what more could anyone ask for?