토요일, 9월 23, 2006
it's been a long time since i've blogged over here. for some reason i haven't felt the need to rehash things that have happened to me over the past few months. it's as if a chapter in my life has closed, once and for all.

the summer just past has been one of the most eventful ever. i achieved the first milestone of getting my first degree and reaping the fruits that i'd been metaphorically tending for the past three academic years. i returned home to a loving family who welcomed me back. my friends from university left for their homes, with all three of us going our separate ways. i moved in with my boyfriend and seriously began to consider the direction our relationship was going. i started a professional education course in london and opened my eyes to the beauty of the city, picking up a couple of friends along the way. i'm even thinking that moving down there to live might not be such a bad idea after all.

for the first time in a long time i've felt that my life is moving faster than i can handle. half a year ago, i was living in durham, with the river wear on my doorstep, where you knew everyone. now i'm in a city where no one knows your name for the better part of the week, and you know, my life could not be more different. also, i've marvelled at how easy it is to fall out of blogging. i guess it had to do with me going through a dry spell, and when things did pick up, it seemed that i hit the ground running so fast that the more i put it off, the less there was to say. in a way i've seen, felt, and experienced so much in the few months i've been away than i have in a long time -- which isn't necessarily a bad thing.

i think that finally, i've gotten my old self back. sometimes it seemed like i couldn't see the end of the tunnel, but the change, as sheryl crowe sings, has done me good. i wake up these days thinking how blessed i am, and am kept busy because there's always something to do. maybe it's being loved, maybe it's the change of location, maybe it's a combination of these factors. at least i've found peace with myself, without the politics and the unhappiness. nothing much has changed about me though, save for the fact that i'm much, much happier. i still type without capitals (heehee), and deep down i'm still the same person, only that i'm letting her out a lot more often these days. :)

the time i've spent nurturing this blog is by no means finished. it is a log of whatever i've gone through, and how i've grown over the years. i guess you could say that i love it too much to let go. maybe one day i will, but not just now. i've just laid a part of my experience to rest, and am embarking on a whole new adventure into the great unknown.

who knows what tomorrow will bring? whatever it is, i'm sure it'll be good.